Things in my world are moving along slowly and I, with the help of my therapist
are gently moulding me into a stronger human being.
We are walking in baby steps, but they are defiantly forward... well they were until Saturday.
My mother, knowing that it was a weekend I didn't have my kids, and knowing that this is a particularly difficult thing for me to cope with, decided to take me to the next town over to look at a quilt and art exhibition, clearly she knows me well.
Creativity = Awesome distraction for Lisa
We wandered around admiring the unbelievable talent from members of our community.
Under Water 3d Embroidery
Felted 3d Fairygarden
My FAVOURITE 1930's flowers.
Until, I turned the corner of the next aisle of work...
Vomit rose up in my throat
I was nauseous
There were no words
Just 10 weeks of feelings welling up inside me
10 weeks of working HARD to get well again
there hanging on display for all the Valley to see...
MY WEDDING QUILT
hanging there like nothing had changed
how could someone be so inconsiderate
to think that it would be OK to hang such a personal item
on public display.
And an item no less that represented a union that was now
past crisis point, past recovery point
just plain past.
I am thinking of passing on my next therapy account........
I have been absent, from my blog, my mind and my life for a period of time now, but i am happy to report that i am back on track now, albeit a different track than i was on before.
my new track involves a new diagnosis - bipolar II disorder,
a 3 week rebirthing process, in a mental health facility,
a marriage separation,
shared care of my children,
and the inception of a beautiful new friendship.
I will admit, it has been a bumpy ride and there have been many ups and downs in the last 8 weeks, it has not always gone to plan. I have learnt that once a chapter is written, it can not be unwritten, that sometimes you just have to end the chapter, and move on to the next one, start a fresh and just keep writing because things can and will improve.
I am becoming a master of my own destiny, i want to write a happy story, one filled with adventures and journey's and light and love.
My new chapter starts here:
Stick around if you want to find out what happens next...
What a fantastic day, books, antiques, boutiques, treasures, food, chatting, laughing and sharing.
there was a schedule; however it was only loosely adhered to.
our first stop was the Maclean Rotary Book Fair - SCORE= 1 BOX of books $5 for Lola and a bag of books for Felix.
Books @ Eclectika, Maclean
second stop was "on the bite"
a delightfully warm and inviting cafe on the main strip in Maclean
- SCORE = 1 x skinny latte for Lola and 1 x skinny flat white for Felix
Skinny Latte @ On the Bite, Maclean
we unswiftly followed out coffee with a visit to "OUR" favorite gem of Maclean "Eclectika"
when Lola became engaged in taking photo's of the unique and beautiful store and Felix engaged in a deep and revealing conversation with "Eclectika's" owner about food and restaurants of the area only to discover that said owner, once owned and ran the most successful restaurant in our region. the things you discover when on an adventure in your own back yard !
Felix @ Eclectika
stop number three, Bangalow and lunch at "ate" OMG the most delicious food.
- SCORE = Pumpkin and burnt spinach lasagna and Organic Lemonade for Lola
hmmm i can't recall a delicious looking pie with crispy brown pastry and an Organic Lemonade for Felix.
Felix deep in the pages of a cookbook @ Ate, Bangalow
Then we wandered the streets and boutiques of Bangalow
giggling, enjoying and embracing the culture of doing not very much.